Sea Spell

May. 29th, 2014 11:48 am
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… I think I officially have a soda addiction.

You know those "book by you" sites where you could be the hero of your own romance story and whatnot? Well… I got one. It's called "Sea Spell" and I made it about Vika and Kyrill. I love it! It gave me so many ideas, and the characters in the book are almost exactly how Vika and Kyrill would act. Plus the book itself is better than I thought it was going to be. I definitely recommend getting one of those books — you won't be disappointed! I personally stayed away from the vampire one, though (I think it's called First Bite), I'm not big into vampires; I think they're grotesquely overrated (not to sound like a pretentious blowhard hahaha).

Other than that, I'm really getting into this one band Counterparts. At first I thought they were generic metalcore what with the constant screaming, but now I think they're really good! I just got into them, but I already love almost every song I heard by them. Also, Coheed and Cambria is really good too. My favourite album by Coheed and Cambria is "Year of the Black Rainbow" and my favourite songs by Counterparts are "Cursed", "Decay", "Wither", "Compass", and "Debris."

Anyway, so I've been doing a lot of writing lately, as well as well as planning out the art for the story of MDC. I actually want to get the story up soon, as a webcomic! :D I have all the materials for it, I just need to draw draw draw…

So next up on the character roster: Rose!

(WARNING: spoilers and all that)

Rose Connelly: Uptown Princess )
Again, please tell me what you think!!

Anyway, I'm going to wrap up for now. See ya!!

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So I realise that I haven't written in over a year! I am so so so so so so sorry about neglecting this blog. I truly am. Things have been pretty hectic and a lot has happened over the past year and a half. But I also haven't been updating due to laziness. =/ I'll take you back to right after I last updated…

Around the autumn of 2012 I rekindled a romantic relationship with someone I will call "J" (not the J I talked about in a previous entry — and by the way, our band broke up). A lot of drama happened with that… Basically, it proved to be a huge mistake, as they were in love with three other people, and I was in love with someone else myself. I still am in love with that person, but I was really hurt due to J, because I wanted to focus on just them and put my feelings for the other person on the backburner, even though J was always thinking about the other people. And then they accused of me leaving them for the person I'm in love with, even though I didn't and they left me multiple times for someone else. I made a point not to talk about the other person in front of J (for the most part), but they talked about the other people they had feelings for excessively to me. So, all in all, my love life has been mostly terrible. But I'm never taking J back again, though I wish we could be friends still since we've been friends for a long time. Regardless, this spanned for about… 9 months? Until I finally gave up. I don't need that crap in my life.

I saw The Birthday Massacre three times since my last entry. It was awesome!!! They remembered me every time!!!

My beloved cat, who I adored so so much, died of feline leukemia in late November 2012. Then my grandpa, the Russian Orthodox priest, also succumbed to his cancer in January 2013, right after Old-Calendar Christmas (which is 7 January). He was diagnosed with lymphoma a year before, but it turned into also leukemia, which is what he died from. It was so very, very sad, and it affected a lot of people in the Russian Orthodox community. Right around that period J broke up with me for the first time. But yeah, I used to have philosophical conversations with my grandpa, and he took such good care of me. He was very funny and very smart and a great father figure to a lot of people. He was also a total badass, supposedly he'd performed exorcisms before and succeeded. In fact, my godmother — who is my mom's younger sister — told me that demons used to torment her, but he did a moleben and they went away. That's it! I miss him terribly; we all do.

The succeeding months were largely uneventful aside from the whole drama with J. On a lighter note, I've been getting a lot of ideas for MDC; in fact, I completely changed it around in some ways. I've decided to have Kyrill, who is Vika's main love interest, as the other main protagonist of the story, and have the books be half his art diary too. So one chapter is Vika, the next chapter is Kyrill, the next chapter is Vika, etc.. You get what I mean. It largely focuses on their battle with a demonic entity known as the Ash Lady (who kind of looks like Slenderman but is in fact female Satan), but it also mainly focuses on the relationship between Vika and Kyrill. So it's a love story as well as a fantasy story. I should probably update my user info…

Anyway, the island of Saltsong (where the story takes place) is up by Maine, off the coast of a (fictional) industrial city called Castle Rock (anybody get the reference? C:), which you can see from Full Moon Beach. By the way, the village where Vika and Kyrill and some other characters live in isn't called Soundscarp anymore. It's called Full Moon Bay. And Saint Féchín's Academy was built in White Crossings, a town north of Full Moon Bay. It's a huge, gothic castle with emerald-green floral Victorian wallpaper and Victorian sconces and its school colours are now black and emerald. Its mascot is still the raven. The uniforms are:

White oxford shirts or white polos for boys
Black pants or black knee-length shorts for boys (but girls can wear the pants too)
A black blazer with the school crest for both boys and girls
A black or green tie for both boys and girls
White blouses with oxford collars for girls
Emerald-and-black plaid kilt skirts for girls

However, you can somewhat customise the uniform.

Truly, Saltsong is a beautiful, magical place.

So, besides that, I gave up on doing Rose's character sheet. I decided to work on Finn instead. He's not a new character, but he's new in the whole main MDC character roster. The character roster is as follows:

Finn McCormick — gold
Geist Zabat — silver
Rose Connelly — pink
James Hidalgo — red
Lain Tachibana — orange
Cedric Cellestino — yellow
Davey Ross — yellow

Dem Foy — lime-green
Lee Desai — green
Cassielle von Siebold — turquoise
Pax de Croft — blue
Vika Foy — indigo/blue-violet
Kyrill Voronov — violet
Morgana Lockheart — purple

I'll just post some basic information on Finn… (I'll post more details some other time.)

WARNING: Spoilers!

Finn McCormick: Golden Boy-Next-Door )

So? Tell me what you think!

Well, I shall go for now, but I'll try to update much more frequently from now on. See ya!! 
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OK I haven't updated since the end of August, and it's the middle of November. Hoo boy. But some things happened!!! And I have stuff to tell you. I shall update more frequently now, since stuff is happening. It's gonna be awesome. I was feeling like shit just now about myself and my art, but my dad came into my room and made me feel better. I feel good now. Like all, "YEAH LET'S DO THIS IT'S GONNA BE AWESOME." I feel blessed to be surrounded by people who support me and believe in me! 

So I have yet to tell you about my most favourite band in the world, aside from Pink Floyd. I don't recall why I kept this band a secret, but I'm coming out with it now, so I guess it shouldn't matter. It's........................................... THE BIRTHDAY MASSACRE!!! They have been such a huge inspiration to me and they pulled me out of a bad spot and they were the ones who inspired MDC! This is how it went down, I was listening to Mindless Self Indulgence, and I heard that they were doing a tour with The Birthday Massacre so I decided to check them out. I think my brother also told me to give TBM a listen and so I did and as soon as I heard their song "Happy Birthday" a series of images flooded my mind and my first thought was: "This would make a really cool goth story." (My story is most definitely a goth story.) I'm talking about the beach at sunset (with the lights across the water from the faraway land), running down endless school halls, having tea with the faeries, going to playgrounds, fighting creatures like giant scarecrows and cruel queens, oh man I can go on and on about it. Also, what more, I'm going to go see The Birthday Massacre on 1 December!!!! YES!!!!! And you know what else??? I GOT BACKSTAGE PASSES SO I'M GOING TO THEIR MEET N GREET.

So here's a list of bands/songs who inspire me a lot:

The Birthday Massacre
Killswitch Engage
Some Scarling. songs
A few Rasputina songs
A few Breaking Benjamin songs
A few Drowning Pool songs
A few Three Days Grace songs
WWE music

And a lot of other songs

By the way, I'm 22 now. My birthday was on 2 September. 

So the business card thing didn't work out with Comic Con, but we're gonna try to still get a website up and print the cards before TBM. And we'll go to conventions that are in the states around us to give out the cards. Hopefully a publisher will express interest in my story soon!!
 My dad also said he wants to print out ashcan comics, which I think is also a good idea. Hope it goes well!! Also I need to get Photoshop. Lots to do lots to do lots to do. 

OK well, I should go to bed, sorry I didn't write much. I'll write again soon!! 
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 I haven't written in nearly two months! I'm terribly sorry for that, I'll admit it was because of laziness that I didn't update, but I'm gonna try to be better at that from now on. I've been going through all sorts of ups and downs lately, but my mother's psychic friend (who is right with her predictions like... 95% of the time) said that I'm going to be really happy soon, as well as getting some money. I have a feeling that will probably occur some time around my birthday, which is exactly a week from now. I'm intuitive myself,  I have to say, and I have good feelings about two very specific things, aside from my grandfather (who has lymphoma). The two good feelings revolve around A. my story, and B. my special person D that I've talked about in earlier entries. It's very weird, but it's like I know that things will go well concerning those two subjects. My mother told me to write down all my predictions in a notebook and write down if they turn out to be right. Like my mother's friend, my predictions usually turn out to be true, but my intuition isn't as good as hers yet, and I have a lot of off days. Recently I've been thinking that things will start getting better for everybody, in terms of money, relationships, what have you. Another thing that my mother and my best friend said is that because I'm schizoaffective, I'm clairvoyant, you know, more sensitive to things like spirits and all other strange anomalies. 

Speaking of which, I've been doing super well lately in terms of my disorder! I was diagnosed back in October, but from what I can remember and from what others remember, I've had symptoms since I
 was fourteen. I hid it well from other people for the most part, because it was just voices and shadow figures and mild vacillation between feeling high (manic, or what I call my "red days") and feeling low (depression, what I call my "blue days") all through my teen-age, but it didn't really start getting bad until February 2011, when I was 20. But then the following October I started seeing a psychiatrist and even though my first medication helped a little bit, it wasn't until Geodon that it vanished almost entirely. Man, I remember when I first started Geodon, I was so nauseous and out of it all the time! But it helped, and now I'm starting to lose all the weight I gained from my first medication. Occasionally nowadays, I still hear music (it's very strange faerie-like music, I'm not sure how to describe it), but it doesn't bother me, it's not like the three "friends" I used to see (I haven't seen those fuckers in a long time actually, they were outright evil and they make an appearance in MDC). Also, it's not like I have mood swings anymore either, I mean I've been feeling pretty up and down but it's not as extreme as the red and blue days. I know I caused my family a lot of trouble and heartbreak because of my disorder... but I'm willing to try a gluten-free diet because it's said to help with illnesses on the schizophrenia spectrum. Also, I'm trying to cut back on smoking dramatically, I want to get back down to only having two or three a day. I've been having minor health issues lately such as phlegm build up in my throat and I've been coughing a lot. Plus I don't want to get so winded every time I walk up a hill, because I want to start jogging again soon. 

Honestly, I don't care who knows about my disorder anymore. I used to want to keep it a secret, but I figure if there's anybody who's gonna become close to me, they might as well know, in case anything happens and I go through a relapse somehow. 

Anyway, today I'm going to talk about the Parisian catacombs, one of the creepiest places on Earth. Oh man, I can't even begin. The Parisian catacombs, or Catacombes de Paris, are an underground ossuary in Paris, France, and it holds the remains of 6 million people from when it was opened in the late 18th century. It became a tourist attraction in the early 19th century. Its official name is l'Ossuaire Municipal. Under Paris there are all kinds of spaces; canals, reservoirs, crypts, bank vaults, etc. but the most surprising thing of all is le carrières de Paris, which are the old limestone quarries. In the 19th century they were mined for building stone, and even grew mushrooms in the underground. During WWII, the French Resistance fighters hid in some quarries, and German soldiers built bunkers there in others. Nowadays, people who love and visit the Paris underground are called "cataphiles." 

Here are some pictures of the catacombs:

The one big thing that I'm especially interested in concerning the catacombs is the paranormal aspect. I've heard many rumours that the catacombs are haunted. There is this one famous video of a guy who is exploring the catacombs with a video camera, by himself. Initially he's walking at a normal pace, but he gradually starts walking faster and faster before he drops the camera and takes off, deeper into the tunnels. I can only imagine how frightened he was. The rational part of me thinks it's paranoia, but I mostly believe that something could've been chasing him. I mean, it's very possible that something was, a lot of things happen that even science can't explain (yet) but I wouldn't rule out any possibilities. Anyway, it's a very creepy video. 

Here is the Scariest Places on Earth episode about the catacombs, check it out! It even features the creepy video I just mentioned: 

Pretty creepy, huh? 

Anyway, I have some exciting news concerning MDC! My father and I formulated a plan on how to get my work out there. This is the plan:

1. Finish the illustrated rough drafts for the prologue and first chapter, and ink and colour them in (it won't be the final piece however)
2. Scan the pages and make a website for it and post the pages up on there
3. Spread the news through social media
4. Make business or post cards (I still have to come up with the design for that)
 and hand them out at this year's New York Comic Con, hoping to find a publisher who would be interested in my story.  

I've been working on the rough drafts since about a week ago, and I'm going to try to see if I can finish the prologue some time this week. Comic Con is about 7 weeks away, but I have full confidence that I'll finish everything by then. Regardless though, I still have a lot of work to do. 

Regarding the character sheets and profiles, I've been busy with the rough draft so I put the character sheet on a brief hiatus, but I will return to them shortly. 

Anyway, I'll write again soon! :)

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 Oh dear oh dear oh dear. 

I haven't written in a month! I want to say it's because I've been busy, but truthfully that is not the case. Instead I've been going through periods where I've been uninspired and depressed. Recently I've been depressed too but my dad made me feel better about it, made me look at it from a more logical, realistic perspective. It fueled my inspiration again and here I am, hopeful and rational! I suppose the personality test from the previous entry was right, I do after all, listen to my heart more rather than my head. My responses to things seem to be more emotional rather than logical. Not too thrilled about that, I'll admit. 

I've migrated from my desk to my bed with my sketchbook and sippy cup (I have a blue cup with a twist top and a straw that I call my sippy cup since I only drink from it). It's filled with delicious, delicious ginger ale. Perfect thirst quencher. My cat is curled up on the bed next to me. She loves my room, rumour has it is because she sees me as a sort of parental figure. She is extremely attached to me. But that's OK because I am extremely attached to her. 

I'm thrilled that Rasputina, this cello band that I like, did a cover of Pink Floyd's "Wish You Were Here." It's not a bad cover in my opinion. But Rasputina is a band that inspires me. Bands in general that are considered "goth" are bands that inspire me, maybe because the story I'm writing, MDC, is rather gothic, in a whimsical, dreamy sort of way. The band Killswitch Engage inspires me a lot too, as well as embarrassingly enough WWE music. I myself am pretty goth I'd say, I mean I wear natty black clothes with Doc Marten boots and whatnot. Plus I like music that is general considered part of the alternative subculture, but I like other kinds of music as well. Pink Floyd, metal, punk rock, indie rock, trance, classical, I tend to like most genres of music. I'm not a huge fan of pop or hip hop, however, but I do like a couple of hip hop songs. I've always been more about the alternative culture rather than pop culture. In fact, I'm so ignorant of popular culture and music that... well, I didn't even know who Ke$ha and Snooki were until fairly recently! I'm really not trying to be like "Oh look how cool I am I'm so special and unique" it's just that I have my own tastes in things, just like everybody does. There's nothing innately wrong with liking or disliking or being knowledgeable or ignorant in certain things, having your own personal taste in stuff is perfectly OK. You don't have to necessarily agree with another person's likes, I mean I have a friend who really likes pop music like Katy Perry and Lady Gaga, even though personally I'm not a huge fan of them. But he likes classical a lot too, so at least there's that. 

Anyway, today I'm gonna talk about paranormal studies, a field I'm heavily interested in. Mostly it involves me watching ghost television shows and videos that show EVPs as well as videos and photos of apparitions. I'm not a big believer in orbs, though, because those could easily be bugs or dust or something else. I'm usually pretty sceptical with orbs. But when it comes to ectoplasm, black mass or shadow people, I tend to be more willing to believe those. Personally myself I've only ever been ghost hunting once, but I did see and hear a plethora of things in my life! Phantoms, shadow men, I've heard things being moved and people walking around when there was nobody there... I can write a book on my ghostly experiences. Fortunately enough, none of my experiences have ever been daemonic... I'm scared to the core of daemons, they're capable of doing a lot of really harmful things and can torment you for years. 

There was this one story I heard, which came from a book entitled "The Dark Sacrament." I've never read the book and am probably forbidden from doing so, but the one story I heard about was pretty freaky. From what little I remember, there was a family that was haunted by this hooded figure, who wouldn't go away even as the lights were turned on, so they all slept in the same bedroom with the door locked. The next morning, the small son of the family was found at the bottom of the stairs, and when they found him they discovered the hooded figure was gone, and the little boy said, "Michael threw the bad man into the fire." I'd like to believe that story is true, and what more, angels are totally badass. 

So, anyways, there's this one EVP recording that really scared me. Hold on lemme dig it up. CAUTION: IT'S REALLY SCARY SO DON'T WATCH IF YOU'RE EASILY FRIGHTENED: 

Even if you don't believe in ghosts or spirits, you can't deny that these are interesting videos. While a lot of so-called "evidence" out there can be explained, some of it can't. I take all evidence with a grain of salt, but I still find it really interesting. Honestly, the only reason why I myself believe in ghosts and other spirits is because I've had so many experiences with them, ever since I was a child. 

So I came up with some stuff for the setting of MDC. First off, Soundscarp is on a relatively small island called Saltsong, and the town it belongs to is called Bailly Bah, which is Gaelic for "town of the bay." I figured some Northern Irish people settled there. Also the school, Saint Féichín's, used to be an insane asylum before it was turned into a school, because people would send the crazies over to isolated islands. But now the island of Saltsong belongs to wealthy or well-to-do people, tucked away safe in their stately, beautiful homes. The island of Saltsong is comprised of all kinds of very pretty homes, but they're mostly Victorian. I imagine the towns were founded in the 19th century, and most of the homes that were built back then are still standing on the streets. Of course there are also a lot of modern buildings, like the abandoned warehouses and factories and the semi-abandoned power plant, as well as the mental institution on the south shore of the island that one of the characters is occasionally dragged to... the character in question you will find out eventually. I want to slowly reveal the personalities and traits of my characters. 

Speaking of which, the character sheet for Rose is coming along very slowly. I'm halfway done with the inking of the two full body drawings on the model sheet. I just lacked the motivation to complete it for a while, but I'll finish it soon and scan it, I promise! Here's how I plan to do all the character sheets--there will be two of them each. On one is going to portray their supernatural forms, along with details such as their eyes and whatnot. Then the second sheet will be of their human forms, with four facial expressions, a full body picture of them in their school uniform, and another full body picture of them in their casual-wear. I came up with a lot of outfits for each character too, it's hard to keep track of them all! 

By the way, this is how I imagine Saint Féichín's to look like: 

OK, that's all I'll write for now! I think next time I'll talk about the Parisian Catacombs or something... See ya
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Now I'm sort of upset because I asked him to and he didn't. Jeez, part of me hopes he gets back soon so I can have one, because I'm really craving it right now. But he should have his fun, since he went out with friends. So I suppose I'll just wait until tomorrow to have one.

My personality test results:

Your personality type: "Dreamy Idealist"
Quiet, reflective and idealistic. Interested in serving humanity. Well-developed value system, which they strive to live in accordance with. Extremely loyal. Adaptable and laid-back unless a strongly-held value is threatened. Usually talented writers. Mentally quick and able to see possibilities. Interested in understanding and helping people.

To my understanding my Jungian personality type is "INFP" which is the result I get in every Jungian personality type quiz. I always saw myself as more of an INTP, but hey! Perhaps I'm more emotional than I originally liked to believe. I do know that I'm heavily absorbed in how I feel, but I always thought I used my head first rather than my heart. I also know I'm definitely introverted and follow my "hunches" rather than my experiences, but I am a daydreamer and am more idealistic and realistic. So I suppose in the end, it makes sense! 

I guess if I could describe my personality, it'd be: Introspective, introverted, intuitive, not very opinionated (at least, I don't have strong opinions about everything I'm more of an ambivalent person), socially awkward, quiet, shy, calm, not temperamental at all (I rarely get angry) but I can be moody I suppose, I just don't show it, I can be egotistical and overconfident in my abilities but that really is just overcompensation for a deep-seated actual lack of confidence, observant, sort of anti-social and I prize my solitude, I pay a lot of attention to little details as well as the bigger picture because the bigger picture has little details everywhere, in fact I overanalyze little details searching for a deeper meaning, like all human beings I can be hypocritical, self-centred, and selfish, I can be brutally honest but mostly to myself, philosophical, deep thinker, I guess I consider my biggest assets to be my creativity and imagination since I was blessed to utilise both effortlessly, I have a pretty bad self-esteem issue even though I can be a braggadocio, and I try to be optimistic but let's face it, I'm a pretty pessimistic person, or perhaps I'm just a rationalist. I think I'm rather intelligent at least in the visual-spatial and existential fields but I'm definitely not as intelligent as I think I am because nobody is intelligent as they think they are and I will freely admit that I don't know as much as I want to believe I do. I always look for shades of grey in so-called black and white terms. I can be harshly critical and unsympathetic and cruel and I sometimes make fun of people behind their backs, but I'm sensitive and don't like being talked about and I feel guilty after I do it (then why do I keep doing it?). BUT HOWEVER I have a moral compass and try to do a good deed at least once every day (not to sound like I'm bragging...actually, no I am bragging) and I'm faithful to my friends. Unless I don't like you anymore. Oh, and I can be a workaholic and goal-oriented and I'm very much into learning. I fear I might be the type of parent who gets heavily absorbed in their career and neglects their children, oh boy. Also when it comes to my intelligence I can never really execute it in day to day life other than when I draw/paint and think. Oh, and I guess I'm kind of a weird person. At least I've been called weird before. But I suppose I'm more subtle about my idiosyncrasies because I'm so quiet. Unless I'm with my few very close friends then I'd say I'm pretty...kooky and talkative. Also I'm a HUUUUUUGE daydreamer and get caught up in my fantasies a lot. I'm really all about fantasy. Also I'm horridly insecure and am easily intimidated by people and compare myself to them.

Wow that was quite a paragraph! Anyway, this is only how I view myself and it may or may not have a degree of truthfulness to it (depending on who you ask, really). As far as I know, there are three facets to your personality: how you view yourself, how others view you, and how you truly are, I believe? I could always be wrong! But I heard that somewhere years ago and it'd stuck with me ever since.

In any case, I can't really say that like all people I'm neither a good or a bad person, I think mostly everybody (excluding those with mental issues more serious than my own i.e. sociopathy), including myself, has tendencies to commit both good and bad deeds. We're all selfish, but when it comes right down to it it's a survival tactic and at the same time, most of us are raised to be moral people, espoused by the idea that there's a pleasant afterlife that we know as "Heaven." I find that even if you're a militant atheist, not one who is just angry that there is a higher being more intelligent than him, but someone who legitimately doesn't believe in a creator, is influenced by religious ideals by some degree by which he was raised, even if he won't like to admit it. But that's a generalisation, I won't say it applies to every atheist, but out of all the atheists I've met, it's something I've noticed. Some people will argue the existence of a good and bad, but I won't dispute that it's certainly not as black and white as simply "good and bad." There have been "good" acts where underneath there lies a bad motivation, after all. Sometimes, there's a flip side; there have been "bad" acts carried out with a more moral motivation than one would think. What it comes right down to it is: people are pretty fucking strange, and who knows why they do the things they do. But I like to delve deeper than that.

Thoughts? Comments? Care to dispute what I just said? Go for it! I love discussions like these, as long as you don't make any disparaging remarks on my character, because that automatically forfeits you from any argument. But I will willingly listen to any criticisms on my personal philosophies. 

In any case, I could go on about it, but that's just a general summary of my opinions on morals, which is a pretty subjective topic when it comes right down to it. Then again the world as we know it is subjective and that's a very basic concept in philosophy, to question where there really is an objective world. There's no reaching objectivity when you're human, irrespective of your intelligence. I had this slight debate with my friend "AR" who believes that they found an objective answer to the meaning of life. But we both agreed that the main concept of philosophy is meta-thinking.

Bloody hell, when it comes to the study of general and fundamental issues and myself, ONCE YOU POP THE FUN DON'T STOP. 

Anyway I'll stop showing off and being an insufferable know-it-all and I'll talk about some MDC updates. The other day I went to my favourite town in the world to take pictures of houses for references, and I found a school in Ireland that I'll use as a reference for the school, Saint Féchín's. The school in question is an all-girls' private school I believe. The houses that I took photos of are Victorian painted ladies, and I decided that the house that Vika will live in is a Painted Lady that is dingy red with black and brown accents, with a turret. She lives on a quiet street with a view of the Sound, and when she first moves into the house, everything aside from the wood floors is pure white. They obviously repaint it and decorate the house but when she enters the Dreaming World, it reverts to its prior blinding white state. Which is a mystery! Also, the streets in Soundscarp are named after fish, so Vika and her family live on Rainbowfish Road, or something. 

I started sketching out the house and drawing up the floorplans for her bedroom, both are obviously integral to the story because she's moving there, and a teenager's bedroom should be their sanctuary. I imagine her bedroom is kind of childlike, but pretty even though she has some pretty interesting things in there like wrestling action figures who live in a giant antique dollhouse, and allusions to her various interests and hobbies which you will find out at a later date. She's also the one who gets the room with the turret, since even though she's the youngest she's still the only female and therefore kind of the princess of the family. The princess in the tower, more or less. 

The painting of Rose's character sheet has been put on hiatus for now, since I got distracted with other things, but I'll resume working on it tomorrow or even tonight, since I'm itching to be working on SOMETHING. I'm just mostly writing and sketching things out, but I'll finish the painting soon, I swear! 

Personal stuff, personal stuff.... Um, well, I went to see my cousins today with my grandparents, so that was cool. It was my cousin's birthday today, and my two oldest cousins (they're 18 and 19 I believe whereas I'm 21 and my brother's 20) and I went to the bank and snuck some cigarettes when we were there, because their parents aren't supposed to know that they smoke. So yeah, that was fun, even though the two oldest cousins had to leave for work and my brother and I were stuck hanging out with the young ones. I hope I see them again soon, I miss them. Also, I had some coffee earlier which was good, but it made my stomach hurt due to the excess of acids. Ouch!

Anyway, I think I've written enough for this entry, next entry I'll talk about ghosts or something, since I'm heavily interested in that too.

See ya


May. 23rd, 2012 02:35 pm
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It's been two weeks since I last wrote--I'm sorry!! I actually have lots of things to talk about. I was just at my grandparents' house in Queens for a little while, but decided to come home because I miss it here too much. Well, guess what, now I miss my grandparents! I always have a pleasant time there even if it gets kind of lonely without anyone around or anything. But most of the time, I don't mind that, because I prize my solitude and I wanted to get down to some hardcore story writing even though my body didn't allow me to because I would be so drowsy all the time. The change in location really sucks because I wouldn't be able to fall asleep until almost dawn and even now, when I'm back home, it's still like that. Hopefully it'll get back on track soon! If not, if I get desperate I'll take a sleeping pill or something and revert my sleep schedule back to what it once was. I will never be nocturnal again!

F, the person who likes me, has stopped contacting me altogether for the past couple of weeks, so that's good news to me! The last I heard from them was when they sent me a message saying that they missed me, and I got kind of mean and said something weird and random and they didn't respond or anything, and since then they haven't contacted me. Honestly I don't care if I weirded them out or whatever, they've been acting very inappropriately towards me even if I told them to stop. You don't just rub your hands up somebody's legs and grab their butt! And then they're all, "Well come on that must've turned you on just a little bit!" No it did not!

Things actually have been pretty good for me otherwise, I hope they don't turn to hell any time soon! That's usually what happens when things have been great for me, something usually comes along and ruins everything. :C

OK so, I'm writing the third chapter of MDC and I'm also continuing the painting. Both are coming along pretty well, though on the painting I've been working slowly. Here's the lowdown on the painting progress:

Sketching:5 out of 5 stars done
Colouring:2.8 out of 5 stars done
Profile: 5 out of 5 stars done though I might redo it

OK, I would write more but I'm really tired, so I'm gonna go sign off for now. I'll write again soon!!!!

See ya
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Also dyed my hair again. Now it's restored to its dark purple glory. The fading process is rather strange when it comes to colour; first it's purple, then indigo, then blue, then this sea green. I was thinking of dyeing it white at some point, but I love purple too much for me to even strongly consider it. But it'd be cool to have white hair at some point, like frosty white.

Anyway, I've been having some trouble with a so-called "friend" of mine recently. They admitted that they liked me (this is a different person than the one I was talking about a few entries back), and ever since then they won't keep their hands off of me. I told them that I have someone, which is true, but they were relentless. Here's what happened: I was hanging out with this "friend" (who I will call "F") in their room and F admitted to me that they wanted to kiss me, before actually kissing me and touching me inappropriately. This made me very uncomfortable and I asked them to drive me home. Well then a few days later, I went to what I thought was just a small social gathering (turned out to be a party...blegh) and F was there, and they would not keep their hands off of me. And I mean, touching my butt, rubbing up against my legs, pressing themselves against me. I kept telling F to stop but they didn't. So I went home, and just eugh. I'm just not going to talk to F anymore, even if they persist in trying to contact me.

I'm lucky it didn't get any worse than that, honestly.

So I've been banned from going to parties, which I don't mind because I don't like parties anyway. Unless of course it's with a certain someone whose online chat handle's initials are "AR" and it's at their house with a few other people I like. We usually have a lot of fun playing video games in the dark and being stupid in general. I remember AR's birthday party their dad made us food and got cake and their mom showed us pictures of when AR was a babby. I could go for some cake right now. But yeah that was a fun evening, and everybody who was there were people I liked, especially AR, who by the way, is the special someone I mentioned earlier in this entry. I even showed F a picture of AR as a way to get them to stop crawling all over me, being like, "YES this is them." Didn't work. So I'm just not going to hang out with F or anybody anymore unless I completely trust them. AR and their friends for example, also my band members and my best friend. Not too many people, but I don't mind.

I went to see my psychiatrist the other day and I forgot his co-pay....oops! I still hear music occasionally but that's all I experience nowadays and I don't mind it. No more rainbow monsters, no more voices telling me to kill myself, etc. I've been doing pretty well lately, I think. My psychiatrist wanted to change my medication but I asked him to let my stay on this medication, the one I'm currently on, and he complied. Also, we were talking about me going to a support group.

It's decided that I'm going to the local community college with my best friend and AR by the way, yay!!!

OK so MDC, I have to rewrite the second chapter! I finished the first draft but I'm gonna rewrite it until I am satisfied with it. Yeah...that's basically it. I have to work on it more, I've been too focused on other things to really be able to work on it.

OK I'll write more again in a few days, see you.
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Sort of anyway, it rained this morning and then it just kind of stopped and I wish it would rain again. It's fairly warm out, but hey it's May! First day of May, I can't believe it. Recently things have been much better for me which I'm really happy about and I hope they gradually continue to improve. Because for the longest time things have been not good for me, admittedly. But I won't elaborate on that. It's just good that things have finally been improving for me.

And you'd say, "Oh, this never felt like home,"
And you said, "Oh, you never left me alone,"
And I said, "Oh, I would've started to drown,"
Oh oh oh oh,
This record broke on its own...

("Broken Record" © Scarling.)

So I'm almost finished with the second chapter of MDC! I tried working on it yesterday but I was too drowsy so that didn't really happen. Maybe I'll go to the library again today to work on it some more and finally finish it, and then walk around Sea Cliff (my favourite town in the world) and take some pictures. You know, make a day of it. I should probably take a nap or something first so I can be well rested for the day's fun. Then I can come back home and continue working on my painting.

Here's the low-down for Saint Féichín's school uniforms:

White or teal-green collared shirts/blouses
Black (and possible teal-green?) ties (school mascot on it optional)
Black blazers with school emblem on it
Black pants (for boys)
Teal-green plaid skirts (for girls)
Knee socks (for girls)

Obviously my characters are going to have customised their uniforms and did things like the girls wear tights and short skirts and heels and the boys wear belt buckles and sneakers or combat boots with pins in their ties or something. It differs with each character because I think it should reflect on their personality. For example, my character Rose, she wears a fake rose in her hair at school! I mean there's plenty of other things she wears for her school uniform but it's just an example.

I hope it doesn't seem like I'm only fixated on details such as school uniforms but they're fun to come up with and see how each character wears them. Like I said, it should reflect on their personality, and details are good!

I still have to finish reading all my library books.

Oh look the sun's coming out!

OK well here's also the low down with my painting:

Sketching: 5 out of 5 stars done
Painting: 2.65 out of 5 stars done
Profile: 5 out of 5 stars done though I might redo it

OK well, I'm gonna go back to working now, I have to do chores first and then I'll resume my works. I promise I'll write again within the week! D: I'm so sorry, I feel like I've been neglecting this blog. I won't do it anymore I promise.

OK see ya.
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I like Sundays, especially rainy Sundays. They're something about them that's so effusively melancholy but calming, and refreshing. I was thinking of going to the library today to work on my story, but I think I'll stay home and work on my painting instead. It's a "stay at home" kind of day anyway, curling up with a good book and a hot mug of tea.

I had some pretty good days so far. At the end of the Easter weekend, I got sick with SOMETHING, I'm not sure what but I threw up and had a fever and body aches. But it must've been pretty mild, because when within two days it was gone even though I've had some queasiness here and there. I guess that was karma for something, right?

Anyway, the day after I got sick I packed up my Mac, went to the library in my favourite town in the world, and worked on my story there. C: Then the day after that I went to my old town on the South shore of the county and saw my old friend, who started the band with me, and we figured out the plot-line for our first concept albums. I won't tell you what it is just yet, but we figured out some pretty good ideas. It was all done by just walking and talking, too. We also figured out the first two songs we want to cover (Radiohead and Nora Jones). So all in all, I've been having some pretty good days so far.

Oh! I also forgot to mention that I checked out four philosophy books from the library. I've always been interested in philosophy but I just got around to reading them, admittedly............. But I'll be reading more, a lot more, to gain an understanding on how so many philosophers think. I've read part of one of the books so far, and already I disagree with some of it but I also understand where they're coming from. Yes people, Alex actually has opinions! (I'm only saying that because I know some people see me as like the "anti-opinions" person....Only some people though.) For example, Thales thought that the earth was flat and that all the lands were surrounded by nothing but water. Of course that's clearly wrong, but he also said that the mind of the world is God and that God is intermingled in all things, a view that would contemporaneously appear in Buddhism. Of course there are many other philosophers that I'm reading about, but he was the first and is only an example. It starts off with the Presocratics anyway.

So that's my "100 Essential Thinkers" books, and then I got two Plato books talking about Socrates, and then modern philosophers such from Descartes to Kant. I can't wait to have read all four of them.

Did you know that you can get a fine for smoking at Jamaica train station? I didn't know that! I was smoking on the tracks and this guy came up to me and said, "You know you can get a fine for smoking here?" and I was like, "Oh OK" but just wow! I didn't know that. I thought it was OK. I guess they changed it. Also, I guess I'm lucky I didn't get caught! Nobody said anything to me about it until that guy.

Oh well.

So, I'm going to resume my painting now after a three week hiatus. My drawings skills are probably all rusty now but I'm going to keep trying until I get it. Then I'll post it here along with the character profile and I'll see what people think of my character! I'd like critique on overall design, the character's well...character, and the drawing itself. I'd like to improve in all three areas.

OK well, I'll sign off for now. Sorry it took me so long to update! I'll try to update again in a few days.

See ya
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So I'm not going to be able to update for a while because I'll be away for the week until next Wednesday because I'm going to be helping my family prepare for our big Easter celebration. Here's the bad news to all this, I think I might be getting sick. :C I think I'm catching a cold, and it sucks. I've also been depressed and unmotivated again, and that also sucks because I haven't been working on anything since I haven't had the inspiration to do so. So I've reached the conclusion that I'm in a sucky spot right now, but I'm sure it'll pass eventually.

Often times I wonder if my story will ever be good enough, if my art and writing skills will ever be great enough so that people can enjoy them. I can't help but compare myself to great comic artists and writers who have garnered such a large fan following. I just want as many people as possible to enjoy my story! But I don't know if I'll ever be good enough.

Oh! So I had a pretty epic day yesterday despite being depressed. First I climbed this giant blue drum by the power plant:


This thing right here. It was actually rather unstable on top because it was decaying, but it was still really cool. We found a way to get in and it was rather dirty but totally worth it.

It was quite an adventure! Then I went to the beach in the town next to me, one of my favourite beaches because you can see the City from there.

So instead of MDC I'll work on a fan side project of mine because as much as I really want to work on MDC I really haven't the motivation to do it and I won't be able to have a chance to for the next week or so. It sucks, but what can you do?

OK I'll admit I really like this one band which is probably my favourite band aside from Pink Floyd. This band in particular influenced MDC a LOT and you'll all find out who it is in due time, other than the people who already know...

Anyways, I'll see you again in a week! Bye.
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Good news!

So I'm done with one half of the Rose character sheets!

Click for rather large images of preview of Rose )

The picture on the bottom right isn't that great, but overall at least it's still something.

So here's the low-down:

Sketches: 5 out of 5 stars done
Colouring: 2.6 out of 5 stars done
Profile: 5 out of 5 stars done

Making some good progress here!

I've been writing a lot of little scenes too. Mostly romantic scenes, because those are pretty exciting to write. I don't know what's so exciting about writing awkward magical teenagers having crushes on each other, but there you go.

I can't believe I've been working on this story for almost five years.

Maybe I'll get to work on the next chapter since I'm taking a small break from drawing. I only have a paragraph in but I want to rewrite that too. I already wrote down the drafts for the prologue and chapter 1. Chapter 1 is a flashback chapter by the way, because I felt like writing some buildup that corresponds with the main plot. Then I'll keep working on Rose's character sheet. 

All I ever want to talk about is my story MDC. 

So some personal stuff: I changed my sleep schedule dramatically and because of that I've been feeling great! I had a manic episode (what I call my "red days" as opposed to my "blue days" which are my depressive episodes which thankfully I haven't had in months) which caused me not to sleep for the entire night and I didn't go to sleep until 9:30PM the succeeding night. Then I woke up at 4:30AM and it's been like that ever since. Last night I stayed up a little later though, but hopefully that won't become a habit or anything. I much prefer to get up early in the morning when it's still dark out so I can watch the sun rise. I'm also working on cutting back on my cigarette smoking dramatically. I'm only having three today. It's tough, but I think I can do it. 

My friend has been really down lately and I want to help them. They're having a lot of issues with their family as well as other issues and in general it's been pretty terrible for them. Maybe I can talk to my family about having them stay here for a while. Said friend is also writing a couple of really interesting stories that I want to see published one day. I know so many creative people! Writers, artists, photographers, musicians, film makers, etc. It fuels me the energy to work on my own stuff. 

OK well, I guess that's it for now. I'm taking a super long walk with my brother today, and I'm bringing my camera, so that's going to be fun. OK, see ya. 


This video is pretty interesting!
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I'm at my grandparents' haunted house in Queens and I'm the only one awake and it's three in the morning. Well now it's almost four but still. My sleep schedule has been really wonky lately. I'd go to bed at like ten to twelve and I'd wake up at around three or four and I'd stay awake until nine or ten AM. At least the ghost that inhabits this house is really shy and kind, though he's freaked me out with his apparitions before. I've seen him twice. I refer to him as "him" and "he" because I know for sure he's a male. He's a tall man who looks to be in his mid-thirties with short dark hair. I've seen him in grey. My mom's seen him too and our descriptions of him fit each other's. I've also seen him as in white, wispy spirit form where he peered at me from around a corner in the hallway upstairs. I thought it was my brother, can you believe it! That really freaked me out.

Someone once was like, "Well how do you know it wasn't all in your head since you see things that aren't there all the time?" Yeah well, I never said that this house was haunted by rainbow monsters, right? But that got me doubting too. But my best friend and my mother said that since I have the schizoaffective I'm more susceptible to things like spirits and ghosts. So I dunno. The ghost here is just this shy, benign, almost fatherly presence (to quote my dad) who doesn't do much but go up and down stairs and knock around on the walls in the summer and do things out of the corner of your eye. I see things out of the corner of my eye here all the time. Like I could be in the dining room, at the table, which is where I am right now, and I could see something in the living room to the left just standing at the doorway in peripheral view and then I'd turn and it'd be gone.

Anyway, since this house is one of the places I grew up in, I'm more or less used to it by now and plus this is the reason why I believe in ghosts, is because I grew up in a haunted house! I always knew this house had something to it, even before I was even fully aware that there was a ghost here. Maybe I'm slightly clairvoyant? It's a thought.

I'm listening to the deadmau5 Meowingtons Hax 2k11 tour, and I love every song that's played so far. I'm practically so in love with deadmau5 it's not even funny. I even draw him. I wanna go see one of his shows someday, but in my present condition I don't think I'd be allowed to do that. I seem to have a thing for crazy, skinny, troll musicians....... Here's the video (note: It's over an hour long so don't listen to it if you don't have time!):

I have a lot to talk about today, in case you haven't noticed by now! Today's topic, other than the ghost here, is going to be about the Titanoboa cerrejonensis. I guess you can chalk in paleozoology as another interest of mine? I'll go update my interest lists here gimme a second....

OK now that that's done with, lemme talk about the Titanoboa! It's the world's largest snake that lived on this planet about 58 to 60 million years ago (the Paleocene Epoch). It's the biggest snake ever discovered, even surpassing the Gigantophis in size. It's maximum length was probably 12 to 15 m and weighed 1,135 kg. And the thickest part of its body was about 1 m. It can't even fit through a doorway!

Here's some pictures of the Titanoboa:

Can you believe how huge this snake was!! I'm so glad snakes aren't that big anymore... I mean to support a body that large you're going to have to eat a lot, so I guess the best alternative for it was to evolve. But it's certainly interesting to think and talk about.

The fossils were found in the coal mines of Cerrejón, in La Guajira, Colombia, which is apparently rich with fossil deposits. The climate back then when the Titanoboa lived must've been much warmer than we previously thought, averaging approximately at 30℃? Also, apparently it snacked on ancient crocodiles. I'm already afraid of crocodiles, I don't need something even bigger!

There's going to be a show on the Smithsonian Channel about the Titanoboa that airs on 1 April, so I hope to see it.

Here's an article for it. Go check it out! It's pretty interesting.

Anyway, I want to correct a mistake I made in a previous entry. I don't take 120mg of Geodon, I take 160mg. I can do maths pretty well in case you haven't noticed. :B

New icon!! It's actually of a painting that I did. The phone camera made it look crappy, but I did my best. Maybe one day I'll be able to scan it and it'll look better and I'll make a better icon out of it. It's only a small practise painting, and it's not that great, but it's still something! The colours of the actual painting are a lot more vibrant than what you see in the icon. I used a blue, indigo and purple mixture over a purple wash. Then I sprinkled salt over the wet paint and after that, I painted in little stars by making wet spots on the paper. Then I painted the tree.

OK so some MDC updates, I'm still in the beginning process of painting Rose's character sheet because I keep having to do it over, but I'll get it right someday! In the meantime, I'm working on all the character profiles for me to post up here along with the character sheets. I just got finished with Kyril's and am working on Morgana's. Then I'll be all done with the character profiles and that'll give me time to work on the character sheets. Hopefully within next month I'll post up Rose's character sheets and profile. I've got some ideas for how to paint it properly now that I have a book on watercolours. I was told that it's a challenging medium but that doesn't deter me from working with it.

OK, I'll write some more at a later date. See you!

EDIT: I forgot to mention that I have a really cool idea for another graphic novel that'll succeed MDC. It's about a computer game that has a virus and a band of teenagers in a boarding school have to stop it. I'll write more about it later!
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This is my friend's webcomic, please check it out! It's pretty cool, it's a manga-styled comic about magical girls. I'm hoping my friend updates it more because I like where it's going and I want to see the other characters and their powers! Magical girl animu and mango always kind of appealed to me (I know it's very girly but I don't care) because I like the idea of superpowered females in awesome elaborate costumes fighting bad guys. My personal favourites have to be Sailor Moon and Madoka Magica. Maybe one day I'll do a Westernized magical girl comic and see how it goes from there. Obviously it'll succeed MDC which is my biggest project at the moment. 

I actually wrote a magical girl "manga" story of my own back during my Fictionpress days and it actually garnered a fan following--I even looked on the site's forums and people were recommending it to each other! I might rewrite it again one day as the aforementioned "magical girl" project and see where it takes off. I also have a fan side project that I work on from time to time whenever I need a break from MDC--which isn't often by the way, but it happens. 

Anyway, I changed Saint Féichín's structure from one floor to three floors, only because it'd make more sense that way! To be quite honest, Saint Féichín's is like my ideal high school, in case it wasn't obvious before. I like the idea of a haunted Catholic school with the raven as the mascot. Also I like the idea of customisable school uniforms (of course it doesn't reach the point of ridiculousness like say Gossip Girl or something) but you can wear jeans and short skirts (if you can outrun the Brothers and Sisters).

So I finally started writing the actual story (sans the illustrations/comics) and it's received generally positive reviews so far. Of course since it's going to be a heavily illustrated story I haven't even begun working on the actual drawings yet. But I will when my art skills are good enough for it (which at this rate will be never). 

Speaking of drawings, I'm still trying to paint the Rose drawing that I did, but I keep having to redo it. One of these days I might get it right and I can scan it and post it here! It's a lot of work honestly, but I'm up for the challenge. It's going to continue to be a lot of work until I'm finally complete with it. I dunno if I mentioned this before, but it's going to be a set of three books. Big huge books, but three books nonetheless. 

Anyway, I'm going to bed (can't sleep). I'll write some other time!
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I used to get stoned a lot. Now that I'm on medication I can't eat up some Totino's pizza rolls anymore, but it used to be a common thing with me. Not terribly common like every day or whatever, but you know, a semi-regular basis like I guess a couple of times a week. Most of the times that I smoked was with my friend J (potential lead guitarist for my band) and he was a really great guy to get stoned with. Now that I'm on medication I can't get stoned anymore, and I kind of miss it. Speaking of medication, my doctor increased my dosage to 160mg today and hopefully I'll feel better and the side effects won't be too adverse. I took the first pill of my new dosage an hour ago (though from now on I'll be taking at at 6AM and PM) and so far so good. I originally started out on 40mg a day, and then for a while it was 80mg. Man when I first started Geodon, it made me so nauseous all the time! Right now I feel sort of queasy but it's bearable.

Overall I've had a pretty terrible day being that I had some problems in the doctor's office (that almost resulted in me being sent to an institution) and whatnot, but it improved by the time evening came and I woke up from my nap. I was really nauseous but I had some delicious broccoli and macaroni dish and had a cigarette and suddenly I was all better! Maybe the nausea was hunger? It lingered after I ate though. Hmm. Anyway, after dinner I went for a walk and I went down to the playground first and then I went down to the beach by the power plant. It was pretty refreshing.

Some more good news by the way!!!!!!!! But my dad got me an easel and also a cool watercolour book and a folder that I can store stuff in! He also got me some paintbrushes. I'm very happy about this and this also has improved my day significantly. He's done so much for me and everybody in general has been putting up with me which I am eternally grateful for. I know it's hard to live with me it's no cake in the park. As part of my payback of my gratitude I'm going to work very hard on MDC--as hard as I can. I mean, not like I haven't been working hard on it before and I do think about it pretty much constantly, but I'm going to work my hardest from now on and see how much I can get accomplished each day. I'm also going to work on trying to get my life back together because as somebody put it I need to "go back to the real world." But really, sometimes I think I'm clairvoyant and that the daemons are sending me new entities to torture me with because they know I can see them.

My mom has forbidden me from looking at horror films and even fantasy films she's dubious about! It makes me kind of sad that I can't watch my fantasy films because I thoroughly enjoy them. Horror I've been fond of too but not as much as fantasy! My favourite fantasy has to be Lord of the Rings. I read The Silmarillion back when I was thirteen and it stuck with me, and I also read The Hobbit which is also a great book. And the movies are excellent. I can't wait for the Hobbit to come out! The trailer certainly looks amazing. And I'm so happy Sir Ian McKellen came back to play Gandalf the Grey. To be honest I've always liked Gandalf the Grey's look better than Gandalf the White's, even if the latter is much more powerful.

OK so here's a cool thing that I keep forgetting to mention--you can see Jupiter and Venus outside my house, as well as Mars! You were able to see them for several days in a row, actually. Every time I'd go out for my after-dinner smoke, I'd see them up in the sky next to the moon. So that's a cool little thing that I wanted to share.

So I figured out the name for the town my story is going to take place in. It's...............................................(wait for it)..........................................

Also the painting is going along very slowly. Today was an off-day for my art skills, they just weren't good today. So I'm going to try again tomorrow. And I'm going to study the watercolour book thoroughly.

Sketches: 5 out of 5 stars done
Colouring: 1 out of 5 stars
Profile: 5 out of 5 stars

It's moving along, however slow it can be.

OK I must go to sleep. I wonder what's for dinner tomorrow.

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And I've also come to the realisation that I suck at painting! I completely overestimated my ability and am nowhere near the kind of masterfully done style I'm hoping to develop. Of course I'm not trying to imply that I would be able to achieve such a skill level in painting overnight. I have a few ideas that I'm willing to experiment with in terms of the painting because really I'm having a hard time with painting the hair, even though the skin tone turned out mediocre as well. I was also really hoping that the pencil lines wouldn't turn out quite so obvious. However I have to keep reminding myself that in order to improve I just have to keep practising, even if I get gravely discouraged or sad that I can't paint so well. 

 Things that I have to do: 

• Paint the hair and actually make it look like hair not a lump of mass.

• Somehow get rid of the pencil lines.

Also this is all on just a face too! The drawing part I pinned down easily, but then came the painting part and I messed that up. You know what else kind of sucks? Earlier today I was so inspired and was chipper and feeling quite great, but then it all came to a screeching halt and ended up doing some kind of graceful pirouette off the cliff and plummeting into the cold dark sea. Basically I just feel so uninspired right now. Or maybe I'm just really tired because I didn't sleep at all last night.

 Oh I don't mean to complain though. Maybe tomorrow it'll be better.

So here's some personal stuff going on in my life: I think my friend likes me. It's only a suspicion though but somebody told me that suspicions like that don't spawn from nowhere. I guess it was initially just a feeling that I had but they seem to flirt with me a lot (at least I think they're flirting I can never really tell) and when I slept over their house last night they even suggested that I sleep in the same bed with them, which I'll admit I was pretty uncomfortable with. But I declined (politely) and chose the air mattress on the floor. This all wouldn't be an issue if I actually liked them back, but I don't, and more importantly my heart belongs to someone else anyway (the "someone else" wasn't there at the sleepover) and considering my current situation with the voices romantic relationships aren't currently top priority in terms of things to think about (but here I am thinking about it anyway!). As long as my friend understands that I have someone else and etc. then I feel like we can continue our friendship. But I'll admit I was really eager to get home.

But maybe I'm just getting ahead of myself here, as I said it's only a strong suspicion. Just the prospect of this person liking me is making me uncomfortable!

OK well, I'm so very tired, I'm going to go to sleep now.
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 I'm not abandoning this blog I swear!! I'm still going to post in here of course, I'm doing this to get critique on my art and characters while talking about my story and science and about the inane things in my personal life. I will have a lot to talk about this entry! Mostly I'm going to be explaining the Waking World and Dreaming World and the faerie species and their conventions. 

The "Waking World" by simple definition is the world as we know it -- the human world. Certain magical species (not faeries for most of the time) can reside in the Waking World inconspicuously, such as lycanthropes and vampires. The reason for this is because they gain sustenance from the Waking World, small animals and humans respectively. Lycanthropes find it more difficult not to be seen by any humans but they mostly dwell in the wilderness or whatever is closest to the wilderness in their area. Vampires however can pass off as a human who happens to be working the night shift. There are other species that can disguise themselves and live among the humans in the Waking World. For the most part, humans are completely and totally oblivious to the Dreaming World and inhabitants. 

The "Dreaming World" is the metaphysical plane of existence where all kinds of different fantastical creatures reside from faeries to talking scarecrows and a vast array of monsters and beasts. It's a very nonsensical world that isn't so strongly bound to the laws of physics as is the Waking World. To put it simply, the Dreaming World is the kind of abstract place that your brain conjures up when you're dreaming. It isn't another world entirely, when you enter the Dreaming World it's not as if you were suddenly transported to Fantasia or something. You're in the same place as you were before, it's just that the way everything looks and works is quite different, if that makes any sense. I suppose I'll express it better in the actual story. The creatures in the Dreaming World are mainly unseen, so they're capable of haunting buildings even without the notice of humans. 

I feel like I can write more about the Dreaming World, but you're going to have to find out more in the story. C: (Spoilers: I haven't figured out much so I'll be kind of making it up as I go along.) 

Now on to the faeries which I guess is the focal interest for this entry! For a supposedly carefree type of being, they actually live by a lot of rules. "Faerie" is actually a rather broad term with a lot of subcategories (mermaids, bean-sidhe, pixies, elves, etc), but they're elementals that are generally tied to nature and have a weakness to iron. They originated from babies' laughter many many years ago.

 There are three kinds of far; Seelie, Unseelie, and the Solitary fae. The Seelie and Unseelie faeries have opposing ideals, to say the least.

The general rules are; during the day and the night, you must be glamoured if you're going to be in the Waking World. Only dusk and dawn is when you can be unglamoured in the Waking World. When you enter the Dreaming World, your glamour is automatically taken off. Also, those with the Sight can see through your glamour in peripheral view, but humans without the Sight have reported to have seen strange things also. 

Seelie faeries are governed by the day and the sun, thus they are most prevalent during the day time and dwell above ground and in the sky. Their assigned elements are air and fire. Seelie faeries are aligned with the Seelie Court, which is ruled by Seelie Kings. 

The Unseelie faeries are governed by the night and the moon, so they are most commonly seen through the nighttime and dwell underground and in swamps and forests. Their assigned elements are earth and water. Unseelie faeries are aligned with the Unseelie Court, which is ruled by Unseelie Queens.

Solitary faeries don't have any particular loyalty to any of the Courts, they are the most carefree and possibly the biggest category of fae. 

There's a whole lot more information, this is just a basic layout, but I don't want to give anything more away. If there are any strange kinks in my explanation please tell me! 

OK well, I have to get back to bed, I'm going to continue fixing up the Rose sketches later before I continue James' sketches. I'm also almost finished with James' profile. Yes!!

Good night. 
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We've got to get on with the film show
Hollywood waits at the end of the rainbow.

("Not Now John" © Pink Floyd)

So my best friend might be joining my band as the drummer. I'm very happy about this development. We've been searching for a drummer for months since we started the band about a year ago, but our endeavours have been fruitless until said friend mentioned that they tried playing the drums. I said, "Would you like to join our band?" They says, "I would love to and I guess I could try to learn better but I'm sure you can find someone who can actually drum." But I mean a band speeds up the learning process and frankly we're all still trying to learn better at our roles in the band.

This band formed a year ago and for a while it was only my friend (from my old town) the rhythm guitarist and myself, the singer and maybe the keyboardist/pianist. Then my friend from my current town joined as the lead guitarist and my friend's friend joined as the bass guitarist. Now we could potentially have a drummer! We also don't have a name or a particular genre yet, but we could figure that out once we round up all the band members.

So to be quite blunt with myself, I am sooooo not a good singer or keyboardist yet. But I'll keep working at it.

Did you know that the colours and patterns you see when you rub your eyes are called phosphenes?

Today I'm going to talk about the "the ice finger of death." It's located in the Antarctic but there's some in the Arctic too, it's extremely salty brine that sinks rapidly through the water from the sea ice in a plume. During its descent towards the sea floor it freezes the water surrounding it, thus forming a sheath of ice. The ice finger of death actually freezes the ocean floor and kills the life down there like starfish.

An ice finger of death isn't like freezer ice where it's a solid lump. It's more like a sponge with a tiny network of brine channels. In the winter, the air temperature above the sea ice can be below -20℃ whereas the sea water itself is only about -1.9℃ and so heat flows up from the water to the air and forming new ice on the bottom. The salt in said ice is concentrated and pushed into the brine channels. Also because it's so very cold and so very salty, it's denser than the sea water. As a result, you have the icy finger of death!

Well, I started the sketching process for James. I still have yet to start painting Rose though because of some drama that occurred that I won't elaborate on, but that situation will soon be remedied. Also, I looked over my previous sketches of Rose and I realised that I had to fix some things anyway! So I suppose it all turned out for the better. 

So this is the situation: 

Sketches: Like 4.9 out of 5 stars done (Just need to fix a few things) 
Colouring: 0 out of 5 stars 
Profile: Done! 5 out of 5 stars

Sketches: 0.5 out of 5 stars done (Going to work on it some more and then go to bread)
Colouring: 0 out of 5 stars 
Profile: 2.5 out of 5 stars (I'm redoing it) 

I'm going to keep trying to work on the sketches and the profile. I'm not very much good at drawing or writing to be honest but I'll give it my best shot and hopefully some people will be able to enjoy it. 

UPDATE!!! In place of the kitchen table as originally planned we're going to try to fit a desk into my relatively small room. We're going to place it in front of the window which I'm pretty content with this, it's much better than the alternative because it gives me more privacy and it's right by the window so it gives me a view it's basically my own little corner of the world. I can't wait to have it, it'll be something of a workspace for me finally. I hope it happens soon!

OK well, I have to go to bed, good night. 
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You were born during a Waxing Gibbous moon

This phase occurs right before a full moon.

- what it says about you -

You like to question things and have issues settled before going to work on a problem. You appreciate art, elegant forms, and efficient designs. You seek deeper meanings in things that you see and want your actions to make the world a better place.

What phase was the moon at on your birthday? Find out at

I like this website ^^^^^ It has cool quizzes and articles and colouring pages that one day I want to print out and colour. Plus it has other fun things on it too.

So I was reading about "acoustic ghosts" which are inexplicable bodies of movable mass that can even rival the size of a city deep underwater as seen by sailors and oceanographers in submarines since World War I through sonar technology (should be fairly obvious). They're called UFOs which stand for Unidentifiable Floating Objects and there were so many theories about what they are but said theories were shot down and the sonar readings were quickly blamed on differences in water temperature and deep sea mountains.

But here's the kicker! Apparently the UFOs are comprised of hundreds of millions of FISH. That's right, FISH. This school of fish was even bigger than a whale! It's the size of Manhattan can you imagine?? I can't even fathom!

Then there's this video that I found a while ago that came with a series of other videos of sounds recorded from deep under the ocean and this is just an example. More information about the video is in the Youtube description. Interesting stuff!

Creepy sound, right? Recently it's been discovered that it's likely that it's actually Antarctic ice rubbing along the ocean floor. How unbelievable is that! The ice must be huge to be rubbing along the ocean floor like that because it's so deep. I'm not sure if I can quite articulate why I'm so amazed by all this.

The ocean and outer space are two such deep, mysterious frontiers that are laid out there right in front of us just waiting to be further explored. There are so many things that we don't know yet at this day and age but I think it's outrageous the little things we discover through the continuous development of science. God surely does provide us with a lot of really amazing, miraculous things to learn about in this universe even if our size is comparable to molecules when we think about it because the universe is so vast.

I do think this world is very beautiful in in a lot of little ways. The way the dawn light hits the houses, the mixture of colours, the way the streetlights seep into my windows, things like that.

I want to study more astrophysics, and I'm going to attempt to be well-rounded in all fields of the electromagnetic spectrum. Perhaps one day if my artistic careers don't work out I will turn to SCIENCE! I will be an astrophysicist or an astrophotographer or anything that involves astronomy.

Great Lent started for my religion but I can't have seafood because I get sick from it, however I think I'll try to eat more vegetables and chicken (I love vegetables and chicken yum) and I'm going to cut out sweets and snacks for the next 8 weeks. There's something satisfying about not eating chocolate and cheese and eggs for several weeks until Easter, which in my religion is the biggest holiday event of the year (makes sense why really because by the time Jesus Christ resurrected He actually did something).

So I went for a walk on Saturday morning at dawn with my dad and I took a few photos and I hope this will become a sort of regular thing. We went down the large hill and walked by one of the beaches and then head up straight into the village next to us and spent time at one of the parks there. I got some really good suggestions! It was awesome and it got my creative juices flowing again so that's great, I think every time I'm going to be depressed and uninspired I'll just take a long walk to clear my head and perhaps once I get depressed again I'll do a painting or something and listen to some good music.

Speaking of which, I'm going to try to start painting today finally! I actually really can't wait for it, I've been excited for weeks but other obligations had to be filled before I finally got around to it. I'm also going to start the sketches for James tomorrow night and I already have his profile written down. If I work on the sketches and paintings at least two hours every day I will be able to produce the character sheets at a faster rate. No days off, just work work work! I'm going to try to have it where by the end of next month I'm going to have Rose's and James' character sheets and profiles up and I'll make every effort to get more people to view my blog only so they can tell me what they think.

Sometimes I really want Falkor the Luckdragon to just burst into my window and take me on an adventure.

Good night!
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Your rainbow is strongly shaded violet.


What is says about you: You are a creative person. You appreciate beauty and craftsmanship. You are patient and will keep trying to understand something until you've mastered it.

Find the colors of your rainbow at

I had graphite smeared all over my face the other day, because I'm an idiot. I looked like a tribal warrior.

I realised that I haven't updated in a few days. I've been in a bit of a slump I guess you can say. For a while, I was really energetic and passionate and driven about my work, but then suddenly it all came crashing down on me and now I have no idea what do. Because of that, I'm trying to distract myself with other things in an attempt to recharge and listen to music that inspires me in the meantime. I hope it comes back soon :C Maybe I'll ask for advice later on how to get out of this uninspired period!

My painting has been postponed but thankfully I got my tracing pad and graphite pencil set. Now I'm trying to figure out which pencil to use for the tracing sheet. Originally I thought it was a B, but that didn't work out quite so well, so I'm thinking I'll try a 6B and press down hard. Hopefully I'll be successful!

So I'll try to start painting sometime this week, my new deadline is this Saturday. I might be going away for the weekend so I'll bring my art supplies with me if I can. I got this set of watercolour paints from a while ago that I never really got around to using (I don't really have an excuse as to why), but I will soon! It's probably going to take me a while to complete the picture, but I'm sure it'll be very much worth it.

In the meanwhile, I have a doodling book that I got for Christmas that I'm going to use every day, and I'm going to try to draw every day as well. And by that I mean, draw a different thing/character at least once every day. I'm going to do a 30-day challenge for myself. That way I can really improve on my art. I'll also try to implement a writing challenge into my days too, but I've yet to figure that out. Maybe I'll do a thing where I'll write a scene every day, it doesn't matter what or how long it is, just a different scenario every day. Perhaps it'll be beneficial in that it'll give me newer ideas and it'll improve my writing and my storyline as well.

Get ready for a run-on sentence here! Speaking of Pink Floyd, which by the way, is an example of the music that inspires me greatly, I'm going to go see Roger Waters live in concert during the summer, and he's performing The Wall, which by the way is my favourite Floyd album, followed by either Animals or Wish You Were Here and then third place is Dark Side of the Moon. Early Pink Floyd is good too I think. But yeah, Roger Waters! Already I can tell this is going to be a great summer.

Favourite things of mine:

Favourite colour: Violet/purple
Favourite band: Pink Floyd!
Favourite music genre: Rock and metal
Favourite candy bar: Milky Way
Favourite drink: Mountain Dew Voltage
Favourite artist: Edward Gorey
Favourite cigarettes: Marlboro Skylines
Favourite villain: The Joker

And when they've given you their all
Some stagger and fall, after all it's not easy
Banging your heart against some mad bugger's wall.

("Outside the Wall" © Pink Floyd)

It took me a while to write this entry because I was roleplaying with a friend.

Good night!
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